haha, oh hi
long time no see!
crazy thing is, when we went our separate ways
i somehow new you’d once again bump into me
we were inseparable
i remember there wasn’t really a me without you
& when you left for a little minute
it was kinda bittersweet
everything i felt while you were gone,
kinda felt like make believe
it seemed like i was in this fantasy world waiting for an epiphany
i almost believed that it wasn’t make believe
& when id try to convince myself that it was
it would only make me angry
i hated my mind
because our relationship is nothing that i should even want to keep
so i didn’t understand why i couldn’t just let your disappearance be
getting rid of you made me proud of me
only made the demons in my head louder
they’d taunt at me
thoughts in a spiral out of frustration
like is this new freedom really given to me?
is this the life i’m going to keep?
no soul tie with depression
but a new attachment to
or like i said before,
would this not last too long because you’d miss my company?
you’re back i see
don’t be jealous,
me & happiness just had a fling