Just Wait...

There’s three parts to healing; confronting (childhood trauma, abuse, etc.,) accepting, and releasing and I’m half-way to accepting.

A lot of instances that have been coming up stem from practically my entire adolescence and young adulthood.

Lately I’ve been trying to figure out why I’ve always been targeted. It’s like some people gained a sense of joy and confidence from tearing me down and picking at my “flaws” and indifferences.

In the past I’d write them off as assholes, deal with the pain their words and actions inflicted onto me and move on.

But now that I’m in a higher space, my perspective has shifted. These people weren’t just targeting me because they were mean people, they were targeting me because of a multitude of good qualities I possess that at the time, I didn’t fully see in myself.

Even when people held my flaws and mistakes close to them to gain false confidence, I remained resilient. My resilience is what got me through the gossip, subtweets, embarrassment, blatant disrespect, forced drama, and hate. Even when it was hard to. Because for each situation God said to me “just wait.”

At the time, I wasn’t sure what I was waiting on but now that I’m stepping into my purpose it’s all making sense now.

“Just wait” blindly guided me to into the space I’m in, mentally, physically, and emotionally.

People came at me in hopes of breaking me apart and tearing me down, but what they were actually doing is multiplying my blessings, my abundance, and my peace.

When you’re in a vulnerable space and unsure of who you are, this could be detrimental to your spirit and your mental health. You can either continue to carry the weight of other people’s projections or get free by releasing what isn’t yours and taking back your power.

Jada

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