I’ve found healing is far from a steady increase. Healing cannot be calculated exactly, measured by the pain it’s inflicted or scheduled. As a young capricorn, I found myself hating the healing process. I couldn’t put a date on when I would feel better. I couldn’t rush to heal my heart after a breakup. I couldn’t rush to forgive and move toward healing after an argument with my partner. There are things my inner child still struggles with. I am learning to accept that this is all okay. All you can do is allow yourself grace and be patient during the process.
The time in which you heal is out of your control, though your participation in your healing process is still required.
If you have no clue where to start in your healing journey, here are a few pieces of advice that you can try. Please remember, no one person's way is the set way, and you must accept that their journey is not yours. You must move according to your own mind, body and spirit.
Have patience with yourself. Rushing to heal can cause more damage than good. Just because you may see others who appear to be abundant, happy and healed, does not mean that they truly are. Every day we undergo and overcome hardship. Everyday we grow. Allow yourself time to go through your healing process, however long it may take. Really pay attention to Self. You can learn so much during this time if you focus your energy on you.
Acknowledge how you feel, even if it's briefly. Acknowledging your feelings can be done by/while taking a morning walk, journaling, going for a car ride, talking to a professional, your friends, family or even into your camera or bedroom mirror. Meditation, coloring or taking time to sit in complete silence can also be an activity that works for you. Do whatever it is that feels best, but make sure that you acknowledge your emotions rather than pushing them away. This only allows them to build and overwhelm your life.
MOVE. Take that first step, even if it seems small. There were many days when I had to drag myself out of bed because this was now day 3 of me not leaving my room. There were many days when I would be crying uncontrollably from the inconvenience of having to shower. Most days I had to force myself to the bathroom and contribute to my hygiene. Putting on lotion was an inconvenience. Having to feed myself, do my hair or floss after brushing my teeth felt like such a task. I’m sure you’ve been in a similar situation. That’s why I say that taking that first small step can really make a difference.
It doesn’t matter how you start, as long as you do. Gather up your strength, stop listening to that voice in your head that’s telling you you can’t; don’t let the weight of your sadness immobilize you - MOVE. Complete your personal goal of the day. And once you start moving, don’t stop.
Sarai / @5arais